I am struggling again. What a surprise. The divorce was no true shock to me and at several points I really wanted it. The very admission makes me feel like a bad person but yet it seems like I cannot let go of this man. I found out about his new relationship on Facebook and they both lead me to believe something else. I felt betrayed and in many ways I hate them both. I did not feel as though I had a life worth living. This all makes me feel like less of a person. I am struggle to find the pieces little lone pick them up.
I start a divorce recovery group this weekend but my choices have not been the best. Funny a song by Kesha “Your love is My Drug” comes to mind. I am starting to wonder about why I seem addicted to this man who causes me a lot of pain. In the mean time there is another man who I have a mild crush on. I have no idea how to handle this. If he actually knows I am interested then he is not. If he doesn’t how do I proceed if at all. How fair is it to try and start a relationship with someone when you not healed from the past?
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